Truth be told...

Truth be told....

Aug 12, 2010

This is not about love…

Im as good as my best instinct, and well I have failed me recently
We all have that road block that giant in the rearview, seems like no matter where or how far you get it keeps following you. Well, I have mine, my thorn is him. He followed me through growth and triumph, this thing I knew didn’t fit, or fill a purpose, kept a hold of me or I him. Either way it never went too far and then smack damn we’re in this mess we call a relationship, a life, a love. It’s one of the most selfish things I’ve ever been apart of. Simultaniously raising my vibration, reaching for more, for the stars, I was tangled in this repetitive flu like bond. First I would notice a little sniffle, small symptoms, but you could tell something didn’t feel right, then a headache, fever, full on body ache, you get it… it started to HURT! This went on for almost three years. Suffered from the same virus, Selfishness wouldn’t let go of me. He called it different things, said sorry for each term, each time. He was always what I wanted even if I had the world in my hands, I spilled full cups of progress many times to take his.
Im as good as my best instinct, RUN.
So here I am miles and miles away from this cycle, hiding out where it can’t find me. Im restoring my faith in myself and soon I’ll come out and join the rest of you in this battle to be better. I hold on to all the truths this body holds, the way we know what we know if we would just quiet ourselves and listen. If you feel sick, hurt or sad, RUN. If it makes you small, weak, less, RUN. If it asks you to settle, RUN.
Everything you need to know is in your eyelids. Close your eyes read your body, it’ll speak. You know what’s right, and we sure as hell know what’s wrong!